I suppose that I am not the only person who sometimes gets jealous for different reasons. I realized that putting a name on it has been very helpful in my repentance. It was hard when I was feeling down without knowing the real reason behind my feelings but I thank God that He had been faithful again and helped me through it.
I have a friend who recently got a promotion I was longing for and I did not take that well which was directly seen in my relationship with her (I show easily the way I feel even when I don’t want to). However, I cannot understand why I was being jealous as I love her and wish her the best.
This situation made me realize that I am often jealous of other people even when I don’t know them that much. I realized that I don’t feel secure and I would like to know how to end this because I know that I am a child of God and everything that I have accomplished so far in my life, which is A LOT, was only accomplished through favor and grace of my beloved Father.
Today, I just performed my first hiring interview at my job and I felt so good at the end. I feel like it was another milestone since the interview went well and I am looking forward to working with that person in the future.
However, that experience brought me to a place where I am asking myself if I place my value on what I did or what I can do or if it is based on my identity in God. I obviously know the response but is it a reality in my life? Do my insecurities make me compare myself to others?
The Holy Spirit showed me that I often feel insecure and that I do not really put value in my identity in God but I thank God because this was the beginning of a healing process that could not have happened if I did not encounter that period of jealousy. As the bible says in Romans 8:28, ” All things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to His purpose“.
If you are reading me and you realize that jealousy often gets in your way, be sincere and talk to God about it. He is always there to forgive and guide you on how to maintain it out of your life. This starts with a decision of not giving the devil any opening to your life and the desire to live a godly life. The Bible says ” You have not because you ask not” in James 4:2. Let’s ask God for help and let me encourage you in saying that realizing your sin is the beginning of a victory over it. Declare it today!
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